我承认这种生活有社会价值，我也看到了它那井然有序的幸福，但我血液里的冲动却渴望一种更桀骜不驯的旅程。

I recognized its social value.I saw its ordered happiness, but a fever in my blood asked for a Wilder course.

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我油然生出一阵对幸福的强烈渴望。

I felt a brief intense ache of happiness.

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你的青春和你对幸福的渴望，残酷地提醒了我我的年龄以及幸福对我是不可能的。

You youth and your desire for happiness cruelly remind me of my age and the impossibility of happiness for me.

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