Therefore I closed my mouth. I knew you would no longer appear before me. I had lost you 25 years before. Since then, I had become a middle-aged man from a fatherless child.

我于是闭了嘴，我知道你不会再站到我的面前。二十五年前我失掉了你。我从无父的孩子已经长成一个中年人了。

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Sartre was a lonely and fatherless child, raised by a doting mother and a professorial grandfather.

ECONOMIST: Jean-Paul Sartre