I loved her tenderly, deeply, but I reflected and kept asking myself what our love could lead to if we had not the strength to fight against it.

我温柔地深深地爱着她，但是我一直在细想这份爱，一直在问自己如果我们没有力量抗拒这份爱，这份爱能通往何方。

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This was a constant battle with myself and one that I am only just recently learning to counteract and fight back against.

这就像是和我自己的一场持续的斗争，而我刚刚才学会如何对抗并还击。

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