At that time, I really do not know how to express their feelings, I only remember that he is with a pain, disappointment and feelings of helplessness into the school of the University.

那时，我真不知道如何来表达自己的心情，我只记得自己是带着一种痛苦、失望而又无可奈何的心情走入大学的校门的。

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So it has come to this: I cannot express in words how much I enjoy hosting this program and what an enormous personal disappointment it is for me to consider losing it.

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