As I sit here now anxiously waiting for the delivery, I shall try to explain what on earth I think I am playing at.

在我急切地等待送花之时，我想解释一下我到底是在玩什么花招。

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We listened anxiously for your updates about the weather on Mars, watched you "think" your way out of nearly fatal situations, and marveled at your liquid discoveries.

ENGADGET: Anthropomorphized Mars lander in terminal "Groundhog Day" mode, tugging heartstrings